Over the past 5+ years I’ve noticed a transition in my being. Before I was so busy working “in” my printing company, fulfilling orders and servicing clients that I never had time to “think”. After 9-11 and the slow decay of the US economy, my printing business was affected and I noticed it started to decline around 2005. Over the next couple years the yearly sales declined and soon it came to a point around 2007 that I had to let go of my brother who was working with me.
I felt helpless for the very first time to change the course of my life as external factors were so great that kept reducing my yearly sales. With all the added free time, some anxiety of the future, my thoughts started on the path of learning and reflection. Basically, trying to make sense of everything that was happening in my life and that had happened up to then.
As I waited for business, my thoughts looked back at my childhood, my teenage years, my work life, my heartaches, my children, etc. Eventually, over time, it was this period of transition in my life that changed my personality.
It helped me to think deeper, learn to accept what I couldn’t control, make peace with my past and be grateful for all the blessings that I had experienced in my life. The transition continues to this day.
As I connect the dots backwards, I realize if my printing business didn’t incur a slow death, (not completely dead as I still serve clients, many since my inception in 1998), I’d be driving a BMW or Mercedes, my kids would be in private schools, my wife would be busy running errands, but my heart would not be content.
It’s funny, though I’m in a much more stressful profession as a REALTOR® today, I’m far more at peace with my life then I’ve ever been.
I’m grateful that I’ve been able to reflect on my life for all these years. To have had to the time to learn and grow spiritually and emotionally. To have had the meditative experience of oneness and understand the scriptures more intuitively. To have analyzed what’s important and to let go of my mental delusions and false fears.
The journey of my life continues and I’ve started writing over the past few years. Where this is all going to lead in my life, I don’t know. I do know however, that writing my reflections blesses me with clarity of thought, and connects me deeper, to what’s real.
Cheers, Jas Jagpal